Post by ~Brookey~ on Apr 3, 2009 19:54:51 GMT -5
Today I feel like writing, technically typing but whatever… same difference. This is one of those days that I have so much to vent onto the computer but when I am typing, I can’t recall exactly what I wanted to type about, so yeah. Call it a ‘Brooke moment’ if you may. Uhh, I guess I can vent about my stressful last couple of weeks. Let us see - I just had a last-minute move from Florida to Ohio which was really crazy in so many ways. Now we took the hard way and drove which was literally a numbing pain in my ass and so frustrating with my mom, two year-old sister and my ten year-old brother while my grandfather drove. Now my grandfather came down from Ohio and we were originally anticipating the move but I really did not want anything to have to do with it at all. There was a large variety of emotions flubbering around in my mind and I still do not know how to describe it at this day. It is nearly a week since I have been in Ohio and I can already sense the changes from the good, bad, the different, and the ugly. Now in between all of that shit, I had to live with a broken-hearted feeling because I hurt somebody that I love; not only love but I have the strongest connection with him from the inside-out. Love, you know who you are because I can guarantee that you would be reading this. I’m really sorry about what I did to you on the twenty-fifth of March. I had a relationship prior to ours that had been uhm, paused due to loss of contact. Remember Orth A.K.A. Angel? How I told many people about how he randomly quit FlyFF and left me hanging? Well, we never actually broke up. We just lost contact and well what do you know? On April thirteenth, it will be four months that we earned as a strong couple. I’m sorry that I am just explaining this now. You aren’t the only person that I owe this explanation to… Other people as well need this from me. I couldn’t stand the feeling of what happened with Angel while we were together. It was not right. I had to make a change before things would have gotten much worse than they were, before. I’m sorry, once again to you. One thing that I have to say is that I did mean every word that I said to you. Even those three words that made us feel alive. I still feel it, do you?
-Brooke <3
-Brooke <3
